“You are a victim.” I stood there with every fiber in me wanting to fight back with words to make every argument that I wasn’t a victim. Instead, I stood there silently allowing the words to penetrate my walls so that I could see what they saw.
2017 A Year in Review: The Dream Team. To overcome Stage 4 Cancer we created a team to help us on my healing path. Here is the approach we took to overcome Stage 4 Cancer once again.
Reality is ever redefining. It can literally change from one second to the next. . . and if we choose to change how we perceive our reality - that change of perception - will impact our life in more ways than one could imagine.
No matter our day, no matter our challenges each day we get to decide who we are and who we choose to be. Our choices dictate our being, our being dictates what we do and what we do dictates what we have.
We choose the story we write for our lives.
I’m often asked, “how are you so strong?”
I can’t say I have this answer all figured out.
I do know that being strong is a choice.
I do know that my emotions do not have to dictate my actions.
I do know that everything we do and how we behave is a choice.
Twenty two months into Ryan’s healing journey and I had to make a conscious decision. Do I want to be vulnerable again or not? Do I expose my thoughts, my feelings, my heart for the world to see? To read? To feel and to JUDGE?
A deep desire to search again, to reclaim what is already there and dig through the muck of what we call fear, love and everything in between.
At the end of the week, there was one question that baffles me to no end. It tugs at my heart because this one is very personal to me AND it is evident is very personal to each patient and supporter I meet. It is a question I try to answer, but somehow my answers just aren’t always enough.
As I looked at the vastness of the canyon, somehow I could see the beauty of the treacherous path. The beauty that can only be seen on the road less traveled.