May 7, 2018
People told me I didn’t love my family because I was taking a different route of healing than they thought was best.
People told me I was going to die. That there was no cure. That there was nothing I could do to overcome cancer.
People told me I was helping too many people and that if I didn’t stop, it would hinder my healing.
People told me I was taking too many supplements. People said I was taking the wrong supplements. People said supplements were killing me.
People told me they had the cure. They had the answer. They had the one thing that would work.
People told me that I deserved cancer.
• I could have let myself agree with these people.
• I could choose to believe something different.
I chose me. I chose my path. And the one thing I can say is that whatever comes in life I can say I did what I wanted to do. I led with my heart. I can live (or die) knowing that truth.
May 10, 2018
PET Scan Results
“Well, there is nothing to discuss because there is nothing to talk about!” the PA stated as she walked in.
“So what are you going to do with the rest of your life?” asked Dr. Kesari.
There are no better words one could hear from your oncology team. We deep down knew all was well before the scan, but our inner humanity sure loves reassurance. We met the oncology team August 2017 and that very day Ryan was sent to the ER due to a possibility of sepsis and was hospitalized for 4 days. The oncology team saw him from the brink of death to now thriving, healthy and glowing. The PA kept looking at Ryan asking questions while going thru a list of side effects and possible issues. The main doctor stated that he had never seen someone go from where Ryan was to one of the healthiest patients he had ever seen. He said whatever you are doing (diet and all things health) keep doing. All of the intentional physical and interior work had paid off. As we walked the halls we saw several of the nurses that cared for Ryan during treatments and one started crying. . . it’s not often they see patients months later thriving like Ryan after everything he had been through.
What a day. A glorious day. So much work. So much endured. So much learning, growing, evolving. But, it’s just a day.
We continue each day. Living, thriving, evolving, growing and learning.
May 15, 2018
Pre-OP! Port out!
Doing some reading while I wait for surgery to have my PORT removed! I’ve been looking forward to this day for a while. Thankful to have had no issues in 30 months since I had my port put in. I remember how against a port I was in the beginning, but it has served me very well. Excited for the next phase of my life journey. #cancerfree
. . . port is out. All is good and well.
Now it’s time to let it all go and continue to be who I am and who I am becoming.
PS: here’s the Facebook LIVE Caroline & I did with a quick cancer story overview and the results. https://www.facebook.com/theryanluelf/videos/vb.100009454441226/2091342157857579/?type=2&video_source=user_video_tab